dk (_kino) wrote in suckitupdyke,

Long time, no see. I'm so happy to see this little Livejournal community alive and kicking it regardless of Facebook.

I've been with my girlfriend for almost five years now. I think things are well with our relationship. I think; but I am not completely sure. I know our love is reciprocal--I love her, she loves me--but I feel something is slowly unfastening between us. We are not all that romantic with one another as we used to. It’s been a while since we have been intimate. She doesn’t even want to kiss me unless I’m “clean” with a washed face and brushed teeth after work.

Last year she said the summer heat makes her too warm to do anything—no spooning, no cuddling at night, no nothing. Now summer is back again, and I'm familiar with her routine. I fall for these pathetic excuses and believe them because I’m so stupid. Stupid.

I miss being affectionate. I miss feeling loved. I love her so much, but why is this happening between us, this distance? Is this a case of Lesbian Bed Death? How can I become a better lover? How can I communicate I miss her affection without her backlashing and thinking I want to split up?
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